hujan itu misteri rasa kelabu
tentang awan yang tamak lalu lelah dan menyerah
tentang basah yang mengundang aroma gundah.
Rumput itu elok dalam diamnya
mengikuti angin dan dingin yang memaksa
yang kemudian berlalu dan merindu.
Origin: my other blog, 8th june 2009.
It has been more than 3 years since that
one!
And yet here's another rainy season. Not
just an ordinary rainy season here in my hometown, but im gonna put it as a
special one.
It's 2012, the doomsday for the believer.
Makes me think about death and stuffs.. Anyway, i have so many stories to
tell. I want to put it in a systematic way so let's begin..
1. I am a clinical student in Dentistry.
Yeah i even graduated already (it's on
february 2012). It's been a rough year, this clinic year. But i must say i
literally enjoy it! This isn't over yet, not until i finish all the requirement
i need to be a dentist. So far i've already passed..
- The integration stage :
the worst part, the best part. I met so many patients! Healed some,
disappointed some. Love some, sick of some. This stage cost ca. Rp. 10jt.
Learned so so so so many things in this 7 months, more than i learned as a
pre-clinical student for 3,5 years.
- Oral surgery stage : 4
weeks working in RSCM, you know the national reference hospital of Indonesia.
The more i think about it (while writing this post) i think this one is
one of the check point of my life. The stage itself didn't impress me that
much, but the experience of meeting poor+sick people scared the hell out
of me. It breaks my heart to see poor people sick and seeking for a help,
but bureaucracy makin' it hard for them. Why cant you doctors and
nurses just help them dammit! The first two days there, i cried a lot.
Then it got me realized: oh my God i am so thankful and grateful about for
the fate YOU chose for me. That moment, is one of the holy moment i had.
- Radiology stage :
strangely i really like this 3 weeks stage. O yeah im in charged for my
group in this stage. I think i did it well enough (hehe). At this stage i
met a very inspiring professor, let's call her Prof. H. For what she
taught, i will be forever grateful. Thanks Prof..
- Public health stage :
this one! Haha this one is surely special. In this 6 weeks stage, i've
spent 4 weeks in Puskesmas Serpong Dormitory. So many laughs!! Little
tears (not mine of course) but in acceptable amount. It's my first ever
experience to live with somebody else that long without any supervision from
anyone (yeah but of course Dad texts me a lot). I enjoyed it. The
problems, the fun, i learned so so so much about life, about social
interaction, about my own strength and weakness.. The only thing that
bothers me is when i came home in the weekend, it seemed that my Mum and Bros
and especially my Dad didn't miss me that much X( hiks.. (Mum and Bros are
fine, but Dad can not express his feelings for me, yeah as always)
There are times when i seemed do not
really care about him, that i thought he is a stranger and always will be..
But let me tell you, he’s not a stranger anymore. I know him better know. I
know his worst, and i know his best better. I really love how we click. How he
and i understand each other, and oh my the way we fight! Seriously, we now know
how to fight properly hahahah! Bloody, i tell you. But bloody good! It’s been
3,5 years now, and still counting. God, it’s like the longest relationship i
have ever had like, ever! And the one i love the most is the way he make me a
better person (with a little help of our “friend” fufufu). One of my favorite
tweet from @IslamicThinking was “The best lover is the one who can make you
love Allah more”. Beautiful thought bro.
The down side of loving him like this is i
hate it when he got a big job (oh yeah a big lawfirm offered him a job, he got
interviewed last week) i hate the way he focused on his job, i hate the way prioritize
the job over me, et cetera et cetera........ but i love the part he make money hehe.
So just pray for the best, the best for him and for me. I hope he got his dream
job.
3. Cant think of anything else.
But it leads us to...........
I am pretty sure that i am a better person
now. I pray better. I speak better. I listen better. I walk better. I think
better. I love better. I even study better (?).
*i really thought i would write more than two thousand words. But hey, this
is a good start!
